People come and go, but how i wish you wouldve stayed

Getting tired these days. My mind cant stop thinking...... On top of sch works and works, im so sick and tired of people around me too... Not in a bored way. but tired of pleasing them way. like i can never please them enough... Sometimes i felt like ive done my part to put in effort to not drift... To keep and make some ppl stay in my life...It might seemed too lil effort or even zero to y'all but i cracked my brain thinking about it every single sec just because i dont want to lose another one in my life.. It bothered me so much i got so upset and idk why... 

I think it takes two hands to clap.. After all the thinking ive done, i care too much for too many ppl that i might not even mean a single shit to them. I just need to set my priorities right... People that still want me in their life will put in some effort too. 

Stop caring lina, stop.. At the end of the day u are just going to hurt yourself......
If they dont appreciate you for what you have let it go. Stop being someone u are not something u cant do...

But they were all so impt to me im willing to go extra mile to keep the friendships......

I hope you will do the same too..

x

And btw, hey love, if you're ever reading this, thank you for listening to my rantings and tolerating my grumpy self these few weeks. First half of the July sucks. But like u said ill make the next half awesome one. I need to be happy... 
:')

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