Hi fella, its gonna be a long wordy post~

hi readers!! welcome back again and i'll be updating you my life... and i'll sum up w just one word, GREAT. really really great. Like fyeah, loving 2012 so so so so so much......... because, finally, FINALLY all the bullshits ive been thru, every single shit, crying almost everyday even in sch, some stupid asshole calling me tap water when i broke down crying, when i skipped sch, when i skipped lessons, tutorials, when i didnt come home almost every night, when i made everyone so worried about me, when ive troubled so many people esp my family, bestfriends, and teachers. ALL THESE EVERY SINGLE SHITS IVE BEEN THROUGH IN 2011 really are bullshits and it sucks big time... really. the feeling its like..... you dont want to cry and seem so weak each and everytime but you just feel so sad inside, crying over the same damn thing every night. no one understand how it felt. and pretending everything is alright the very next day. Telling yourself you've gotta try. TRY. try every single day and dont give up because my besties family teachers did not give up on me. Getting drunk, not to look cool or try to be some badass but thats when u can escape reality a lil while, (tho too bad now im allergy to alcohol), getting ink... parties. really screwed up and messed up fucked up life. Ive never loved a life like this. Gosh. and yea people........

i'm proud enough to say ive made it through.

this result that ive gotten today, blessing in disguise.
and to all those people that have helped me.... my bestfriends... really mates. thanks for all these. I don't know what i can do to show you guys how much i really appreciate it. But all i know is that whenever am down, i feel really fortunate that ive got you girls to turned to. no, we are not what "babygirls" or whatever fake friends out there... i feel like i really do have bestfriends. :') thanks for sticking w me throughout. and yay!! we made it through together!! Thnk God i did not transfer sch that time and now we've graduated together!!! *fistbump bros. And im really proud of you girls today!! <3
and as for all the teachers, sorry to have troubled you guys so much last year. every encouragement meant a lot a lot to me. Without you teachers i wouldnt have gotten this result today :')
and to my dad and mum, tho you will never ever read what i typed here but, hi! <3 im really glad to hear from you guys that ive made you proud today :') tho its not THAT good enough, but you guys will never blame me even if i didnt do well because you knew what ive been through.. thanks mum for being there whenever im so sad.... sitting next to me, not saying a word because you knew it would make things worse, but still, u never once left. And thanks da, for buying my fav stuffs and all just because you are not good at words :') i love you. x

k sucha emotional and long post.... its only because im feeling really really GRATEFUL NOW. really am. Last but not least, thank god for answering my prayers.

and to those bitches and jerks...
in your face?